He’s supposed to be happy with his limitations. I could feel myself enjoying the comfort of home, when I knew deep down that I longed for the world. But at a point, I could also feel my counts creating indifference. Growing up, humility and gratitude were generated by counting my blessings. Because while they have the power to generate humility, they also have the power to generate apathy. I’ve found that these statements are dangerous.
It’s synonymous to something I’ve often heard growing up: “you should be grateful”. This interaction stuck with me because of its callout to limitations. But there was no way Penelope and I were going to sit still. “We were supposed to be happy with our limitations. If I just quiet the comparisons and the scales of the world, I actually quite love how I navigate. It’s simply about your own life and how you love navigating it. Gordy’s quote above is a good reminder for all of us. The key thing about all of these thoughts is that it often stems from judging myself on a scale that’s - frankly - not mine. Am I doing well enough? Should I be getting a masters? Dating more? Working out?
From my degree, my relationship status, and even my likeness to Diana Prince, I’ve judged and continue to judge how I navigate my life. I’ve grown pretty self conscious about how I navigate the world and whether it’s even the “right way” to do it. And, as what often happens when you think about others’ paths, I’ve been comparing those paths to mine. I’ve been thinking a lot about how everyone else navigates their world. “If you’re good at it, and you love it, and it helps you navigate the river of the world, then it can’t be wrong.” “So you take your cartoons as seriously as you take books?”
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